its happening all over again. im not prepared. im too scared to go through it one more time. they said its gonna be a tough one. and it might make things worse. for what i know, i might not even be able to make it in time. the temperature rises. every minute, it rises. to an extend where it will just pop the thermometer anytime soon. 

there wont be anywhere to turn to. there wont be much time to even say the right words. there wouldnt be enough room to breathe anymore. they said it will be a miracle if i could make it through this one. but i dont think so. i dont have anymore faith even in myself, let there be hope running.

just a week. another week for me to fill in every single gap in my life. to plaster every single mistake i have done. to cover all the lies i have told. for it might be my last.

i just dont know what to do now. i dont know how to react. i dont know what to feel. i dont know if i should care at all. im losing myself.

Imaginez que je n'ai jamais existé. Où vais-je? Qui vais-je? J'ai beaucoup de choses à demander. J'ai beaucoup de choses à dire. Je suis perdu. Je suis disparaître. Bientôt. Bientôt il va tous être plus. Prétendez que vous ne me connaissez pas. 

J'ai peur.  J'ai très peur. 

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