oh.. let it rain. as i sit by the fish tank and stare at them swim. how can a crying scenario take place here? hmm.. well, just so you know, it actually did. come to think of it, i didn't know why i cried in the first place. but i felt that it has to do with Cortez. he put me on the line. he made me feel bad and for the past years, all his done is get himself into much trouble i think no one would ever want to take note of. and so far, i've been lying to myself. lying to get into the life that i wanted. lying to be someone whom i' m not.

and suddenly, blogging using my phone seems easier than expected. so this post is initially suppose to be posted from little Seiicy (myphone) himself. funny that i actually type alot more slower when it comes to blogging while my sms could be in a flash of light. hehe.. lol!

i repainted my nails pink now. cause they were black in the first place and Mama disapproves me having black nails as the look evil and goth-like. furthermore, pink isnt that much visible from afar. so yeah. pink nails it is.. ok so one more day of fasting and it will be the end of Ramadan and hello to Syawal; which means, Happy Birthday to me! err.. haha.. or more like welcome to the setans and jins and hantus! lol! its sad that i could fast on the last few days due to the presence of BigMac! and i think i hadn't been doing much prayers this month. seriously, i've been slacking alot instead. and i've been doing fatigue work eversince the holidays started. hey, i managed to work for 2 weeks only. 1 week before the holidays started and 1 week during the holidays itself. so it means i only managed to work for 5 days in that 2 weeks and my pay is like NOTHING! since i didn't get any callers to convince and stuff like that. whatever! of what i know, i've wasted that 5 days. seriously!ARGHHHHHH!

and my arm isn't doing that great either. after zie kept beating my elbow yesterday, it turned BlueRedBlack! very pain siow. and mama doesnt even care. she expected me to finish up after her, which in the first place, she hasn't even started on a single shit. the cleaning i mean. and imagine, i would prefer to just have my arms amputated anytime if possible. and if anyone who dares touch my arm, i will give you a hell of a fucking time i tell you. i don't care who you are fucker!

and Cortez is bitching again. singing lullabies to keep me awake? what the fuck. i feel so pissed off just talking to him right this moment. and the fact that i don't want to be bothered late in the night (wee mornings) is something you should take note of eversince we patch up idiot! already having PMS and your giving me a hell of your time? and come to think of it, my phone is jamming up due to his hideous voice! sorry but i don't think i'm in the mood to blog anymore.

cheers for now, fuckers...


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