daddy dearest gave me a long long history lesson about Shirley Bassey. who she initially was, i have no clue. but after the lesson, i learn to appreciate the old times of my parents. how cute of papa to put in old pictures of him and mama in his phone. and compares how me and mama look alike when she was younger. hmm... i doubt i even look a tinsy bit like her. maybe kor looks more like her than i do, since i was labelled ah gong's clone. hahaha.. ya.. so wanna know how my ah gong looks like, you have a clone of him right here. LOL! and we were suppose to call him Ye Ye right? ok i don't know... so thats why i think i'm losing my chinese essence!

Aizat, i love you! seriously. once i get to meet you, i will surely hug and kiss you and propose to you. haha. ok exaggeration. if so, then where am i to put Mr Mimi? oops~ haha... my current addict, Aizat AF! yeah.. i don't know why but its a smitten!

and i think i'm feeling abit better now. though things didn't work out right, let it be and move on. and hey, if i were not to be here anymore, then who would wanna be the center person to settle things out between us all? so now i know that my presence is still respected by the family.

and guess what we had for break fast today... Spaghetti! again.. haha. well, i know spaghetti is like my forte but i'm kinda getting sick of cooking spaghetti and eating spaghetti and buying spaghetti and tomatoes! i wanna eat paella instead. SALINA! if your are reading this, I WANT PAELLA! i want i want i want! i can't get the recipe right you know. maybe i'm just meant to cook spaghetti only for the rest of my life. haha.. like that no one will wanna marry me. lol!

alright, papa has left for work. so now i have my room to myself until tomorrow noon! yeay! can sleep abit longer after sahur later. hopefully. normally, i can't even sleep after that cause sotong will be awake and she and mama will start molesting each other and shouting here and there and not forgetting the television switched on to the maximum volume like no ones business or that its actually 4 in the morning! FISHES!

ok now. if Brian were to really convert right, i want him to be named Aizat. haha. ok enough with Aizat already lah... lol! according to the counter, i've listen to this song for like 63 times from yesterday till now. wah.. siao arh!

hope the AGs break fast gathering will go on this Sunday. i don't want it to be cancelled like just now Speedmate gathering. i will die if i don't meet up with them kecohrables! haha... miss them to bits other than that Meany Monster whom i will see like every weekend. lol! and i miss my mas indon, Hakim. haha. and wawa! i miss you too! ayiz, my estate partner in crime. ok what ever. haha. ya, i miss you too! EeEe! you are missed too! and atok, i miss your kacut! and calling up the uncles and aunties are like so much fun. (huh?) its been a long time since we last chat and chatting with them was like chatting with them. ok i'm not making sense. haha.. nevermind... 2 and 1/2 hours more till mama will wake up to make sahur for us and start screaming at the top of her head just to wake us up.

ok now, is this essay long enough? hmmm.. i don't think so.

by the way, did you realize that i went to sentosa again? maybe its the place where i calm myself down? hmm.. i just go there, sit down at the sand and cry.. then when i'm done, i will walk back to the bus stop to head back home or to Den's house. imagine how much time wasted just doing so.. sheesh!!!! next time i will bring someone along to cry with me... haha.. beware.. my first victim will be........................

i have no answer now, but this much i can say...