it rained heavily. for so long, the water dropped down from high up in the clouds. like crying for someone. like there is no time for tomorrow to start itself. heck i miss that old man. the one who will quarrel with me on which pillow will be nicer to sleep on. the one who polished my DnT artefact for me during high school. the one who told me alot of stories from the olden days. the one that was suppose to be really close to me. but on the contrary, i made a new friend. to fill up my boring days. to help me out in my bragging hours. to brighten me up during my pouring days. hmm.. she will be a good friend i suppose.

i miss talking to my dearest star. he will normally come by and sit beside me to talk about all the rubbish he sees while making his way to me. he will force me to take my medicine and will take a few of it himself just to make sure that i took mine. missed his bitter iced tea with the little slice of strawberry on the side of the cup. and the way he took the dental floss he gave to me for my birthday and made it into a star. and i truly missed the room he decorated just for me to stay in for the week, filled with glow-in-the-dark fishes and stars with little sprinkles of folded stars on each corner of the room.

i miss that bastard who keeps tagging me BITCH in this blog. that bastard who filled my 2years 9months with nothing but hurt and sorrows. but still, the times i spent with him was indeed an extraordinary one. i miss hugging him tight when it rained heavily, just to keep ourselves warm. i miss his stupid face when he tried laughing and sneezing at the same time. i also remembered the bouquet of roses for his 20th birthday. reminds me of the sweet necklace he gave in return of the roses. haha.. presenting the person who returns you a present after giving him one on his birthday. and even though there was a slight drizzle, we would still lay down at the beach, letting the rain touch our skin and watched the rain cloud just pass by leaving the sky clear for the night. though times were really not meant for happiness and bliss for us two, i miss the times spent with that bastard.

dear aunt jenny, now that its raining, i miss eating your sour muffins, fresh from the oven. they may be sour but its the effort of making it that counts remember? and remember how Grans would add sugar powder to your muffins just to make it sweeter? i somehow think of you two much more often whenever it rains. and i thank you loads for that cute notebook you sent as a belated cum advanced birthday for this year and next year at one go. haha...

books dear books. i miss reading you guys so fast like how i use to during late high school days. gosh, now to think that i actually have a hitch to spare just to hold you in my hands and flip up to every page filled with nothing but alphabets and maybe icons of such.

come to think of it, it actually took me 4 hours just to write up this post. since i started typing this out from 9pm onwards. long enough? but i feel like writing more. i just wanna write more and more. so bare with it ya? and i suppose before i even post this the power might just go off or the internet might just show some error so that this super duper long post wont be able to show up on the blog. hmm.. lets see..

well, as i must say, school aint getting any better now. with teachers being frustrated with every single student available on earth, i must say, wait for it to blow yaw. though, with the right people and the wrong moments, times in class will be better. i feel really stressed out with the exams all getting near. not forgetting the O levels coming soon after the major modular exams. argh!

furthermore, Ramadan is drawing near and i feel unprepared. i feel like its too fast. i haven't trained hard enough to fast for the entire month like how i use to during the yesteryears. and i feel that i haven't prayed hard enough to enter into the fasting month. gosh! i dont feel the purity coming. someone help... cant expect me to depend on Meany monster all the time aye..

and the rain stopped for awhile. i think there is something amiss. my little hamhams are at mind. the little cuties of my life. i think i haven't been treating them well enough. i think i have neglected them more than caring them. i dont know what to say. shame on me..

and to end my speech for now, stolen for syikin's blog


yes you are a winner dear..


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