i'm scared. i'm afraid. i don't know how to react to such action. not many people faced it but when the family is falling apart, what do i do? i know that we manage to mask the problems well but now, i don't know if i can handle this anymore. i cry every night just because i was too afraid it might someday happen to me too. i don't want anything like that to happen. no. never in my entire fish life will i ever let that happen. like he said, i need help and better start seeking for it now. but i'm much too confused what to do. oh god please help me with this.

cut to another topic, while waiting for Meany monster over at Sentosa Express, caught up with beloved Wani from airport guide. yupp. she was at the info counter today. and it was rather interesting to see her at work. she saw me walking towards the toilet at first and she called but i didn't have her number so i was kinda puzzled when i received her sms. yeah. sorry babe. miss her too. yeah. i miss the airport guides other than Meany monster that is. yeah. haha. i guess i just see him a little too often nowadays.

and the class is in counter strike madness just now during OFA! they will playing CS and using teachers' names as displays. funny how the class can be that crazy. but hey, guess what, class bonding yeah! haha. tell ramu to do something like this during CAH and for sure people will come! haha.

oh yes, you know the zap code thingy on the papers? yeah. got a call from them claiming that i won a pair of movie tickets to the movie P2. was unbelievable at first but what could i say, i must be lucky. and Meany monster already booked the tickets from me. sheesh! luckily it wasn't stalker who booked it or i will be running for my life. haha.. and yes i am a gv movie club member. so don't get shocked when i say i am one ok? yeah..

twin came around about 9am Paris time today. oh my god i am so thankful that she is fine. but there are still some other complications so she has to remain in the hospital. im just happy that she's come around. so that i can continue my midnight calls with her and our bloody singing every time. and after this, hopefully she is well enough to go back to school and study. yeah. miss you a whole lot bitch!

and now, im really pissed that my pillow got kidnapped! i can't sleep because my pillow is not at sight. thats why you will see me online sometimes in the middle of the night all of a sudden. yeah. alamak! idiot! return me back my pillow man!

and Meany monster, stop it with the barberque fish lah. every now and then talk about fish. educated fish lah. fat fish lah. chocolate filled fish lah. i know lah im fat and eat a lot of chocolate and study too much at times. but no need to exaggerate too much on lil fishy. she gets stressed easily you know. wait later you want to grill her, the flesh not tender enough how? haha.. see lah. fishy is stress! blueck!

and i can't wait for next week! my spanish guy will be coming. and no Meany monster. you can't go on a date with him after me. NOOOOOO! he will be around for 2 days only before he fly to some other country and he is not related to Cortez V!!!! damn it! hahaha. fishy is stress!!

What it meant to me will eventually be a memory..


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