the arrival of Ramadan. mixed feelings. excited. scared. and with the current situation i have to face, i feel like i'm not ready to face Ramadan because i'm afraid of not being able to do my best during this wonderful month of bliss. hopefully, i will be able to face this with lots of faith, hope and courage.

and some people just cant see me in lightheartedness. there is always something that they have to do to make my life miserable and filled with agony. patience. easier said than done. i've been very patient with him but no, he has to make me part of his wretched situations every single time. i'm much thankful that he is really flying back tomorrow. and i mean really. i hate guys! especially this one. seriously, get a life wont you? or would you like me to get violent like how i use to when i was with you? i think anyone would get violent if they were to be with you for 2 YEARS! and seriously, i didn't understand how come i could have a (ex)boyfriend who is like this and would go to the extend of sleeping around with other girls. i bet they themselves can't tolerate guys who could only think about sex all the time and nothing but that. sheesh! and don't worry, i won't be the one to chase you anymore.

i try to keep myself at the peak of health and extreme gay. so i sang to my hearts content during practice just now. wow! and to keep myself continuously singing, i went to search for songs which i could listen to during the fasting season. and here's what i've got.



and its also from Ungu. maybe perhaps thats the only Malay/Indon Band that i know of. so previously, it was Sesungguhnya, Andai Ku Tahu and SurgaMu. haha. well, that's me. music is my thang.

anyways, its been a rainy day. rainy week. rainy month. and i need a new umbrella due to 3 exceptional reasons. My current umbrella is

1. losing its umbrella-ness. haha. its seriously not being an umbrella at all.
2. spoilt! someone used my umbrella just now and lost balance causing it to tear somewhere here and there. hmph!
3. getting rusty. i can't use an umbrella that is super rusty. furthermore, i got it for $3 at some rundown shop that was having a clearance sale. haha..

so can i get a new umbrella? its just an umbrella. yeah. haha... cheap ones will do. as long as it last longer than this current one which lasted for only 9 months! haha. if i were pregnant, i would have given birth already!

speaking of which, my POA teacher, Mrs Chia will be having her 2nd child later next month perhaps. haha. yeah. so i did went back to NCHS for teachers' day. don't worry, i didn't get a present or anything for them so teachers, no need to get jealous. and Krishnan hasn't changed. everything ask us to wait. still have yet to receive our Sec5 class photo which was suppose to be given to us like last year! hmph! and Mdm Pey is still her usual self. cute as ever. haha. and expecting us to accept whatever that she doesnt want. erm. let me rephrase that. ok nevermind. and had a short chat with Mrs Chew(Ms Neo) about life and choir and all. yupp.

later on, we went to Cineleisure to watch 僕の彼女はサイボーグ (Cyborg She). i want to watch again. seriously. i want! haha. watched the one at 1640hrs so we had heaps of time to spend. slowly luncheon at BK and walked around. after which, took neoprints where the 6 of us squeezed into frame. haha. and i think we were unlucky on that day. when we wanted to have our dinner at McDonald's, we were literally shooed away because Taka was closing. so the 6 headed outside Civic where we had our picnic outside in the polluted air and under the dark sky.


and i understand that i watched a little too much movies this week. its like i watched Death Race alone at GV Bishan on Monday to relieve stress due to that someone. and on Wednesday, watched Love Guru with the usual, Lx and Sh at Cineleisure. and on Friday, after visiting NCHS, went to Cineleisure again with Lx, Sh, Hp, Js and Bella to watch Cyborg She. luckily i didnt plan to watch a movie today or else it will be considered movie day every alternate days. haha. lol! broke lah like that...


anyways, little Amber is doing fine. she ate well and is in tiptop condition, other than smelling my feet all the time. haha. i hope she find other ways to recognizing me rather than smelling my feet everytime.
and i want to share another song. the one that i listened to a few years back and suddenly, starts ringing in my mind again. ooh~ enjoy ya.. or how about we sing this song during our Sunday classes? kiwak... serious pe.. lek sua... bu yong cing de lah. ke yi zhang de. haha.. hao ting de hor? wo xi huan..! oh my tian!





and i kinda miss talking to that big bully. its been so long since we last talked whole heartedly and the times where i had to squeeze enough brain juice just to figure out every riddle you gave. haha. that big bully. haix~ and his stupid jokes that doesnt make sense but will still make me laugh even if its not funny sometimes. and the free movies we always watch. and the late night dinper(dinner-supper) at somewhere where we would just laugh our ass out. haha. yeah.. and not forgetting me asking him to fast with me every now and then. haha. oops~ i guess you will know who he is now. haha. that big lazy bum bully that sleeps at work. (ekh!?) and i seriously miss talking to him about the foreign guys that i met while he was away somewhere and gets jealous each time. haha. ok enough yaw!

ok now! break fast plans yeah!? start planning already! gathering for all Speedmates07, Airport Guides, ITEmates and hopefully Primary/HighSchoolMates! calling calling ya! i will be free on weekends only for i have to fly back home on Monday nights! emangnya makin panjang ya? ahah..


i think we are drifting apart because of him. why do you take everything so seriously?


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