Sunday, July 20, 2008

i'm not really sure if your back to your senses but i'm glad that you, for once, managed to use your brain to think. its not that i hate you, but i just don't want to see my heart break further. about visit you up there in Italy, i think i will pass. sorry but i don't want to get hooked up with you again. going there once would be enough for me. but i will consider again once i find someone else to accompany me there. and treat that girl with respect. i don't like the way you were 2 years ago, before i felt like jumping down from the 17th floor building. all the best, Cortez..

hey, i love my hair so its up to you guys about what you want to comment about it. though it wasn't professionally cut, i still love my own uniqueness in me. so buzz off the credits already yeah!

so now its hitting 28 hours of no sleep. hmm~ insomnia is a bad thing, fishy! and later, you will have to be up bright and early. aiya~ why cant i sleep? WHY!? i want to sleep. my panda eyes are beautifully carved under the eyes. and researchers say that people die from exhaustion due to insomnia. alamak! how?!

and i cant stand the people in my house. they love to shout and scream and cry and scream and shout. its irritating, stressing and heartbreaking. cant they just be obedient and follow the house rules and such and live like a happy family? as a sister, i'm sick of this family quarreling over some shitty crayon that has no wrapping or that country eraser kids get for 20cents each. but still, i love my family and i want the war to stop. no wonder i've got insomnia. stress over such things. haiye~ have peace not war!

i miss chatting with the people i use to chat on msn with a few years back. i miss my tuition buddies during primary school (i don't know if they would still remember me though). i miss zie. i miss joyah. i miss timah. i miss lx & sh. i miss my wifey, levina. i miss my classmates from kindergarten till now. i miss my ex-bfs (oh no). i miss my airport guides and supervisors. i miss my UnUsUaL gang. i miss the aunties at the tea factory. i miss my smoking partner. i miss my movie buddy aka meany monster. i miss my hugging partner. i miss my t3 toastbox buddy. i miss stalkerazzi (hahaks). i miss my f pier lovers. i miss my locker buddy. i miss my bus mate. i miss my primary school friend aka my current classmate. i miss my chocolate buddy. i miss my twin. i miss my bitchy aunt jen. i miss my neighbours from the land before time. i miss my hamsters. i miss my life being a student council or prefect. i miss being in charge. i miss being myself for once

i'm not getting married to anyone so get it straight! i'm not flying to Italy cause its getting expensive. i'm not visiting Salina in France cause of the same reasons as why i'm not flying to Italy. im not gonna start working cause daddy dearest disapprove me working. im gonna kill myself if anyone ask me the same questions all over again.

i'm craving for 80% dark chocolate. no i don't want the 90% ones. i want 80%! and i want to eat durian. i miss eating durian at the void deck with some stranger who was suppose to be my uncle. i want to eat durian! let me eat durian! i want the durian itself and not in some puff or processed into dodol or anything! someone better get me some durians.

and ok zie. reply to your 5th or 4th or 3rd entry. ok i forgot which one. haha.. i will make myself free and be your breakfast-lunch-dinner-supper-break-study partner. the other two normally tak leh harap nyer orang. nyahaha...

i feel the light betray me...