i searched high and low but i cant seem to find it. i feel lost without it. i cant live without it. i'm sad. my one and only hope of getting better disappeared from me. who could have done this to me? i wonder. i wont be able to think straight or rest my mind if i don't have it by my side. oh man, can someone please return my pillow? i need my sleep. i want to rest. i have to snooze before pre-dawn breakfast later on. i have to get my sleep or i will end up like a zombie later. so that idiot who stole my pillow, jolly well return my pillow damn it. see how desperate i am without my pillow? i will go crazy within seconds! shit you!

and i love daddy. he is the best dad in the world. he is the only dad that dares to share the secrets of gambling with me. he is the only person i dare to open up to. he is my best buddy. and lastly, we still share that same little room where it will be mine during the night and his during the day. we made that agreement. yeah. funny thing is that he gets the room to himself if he is having his off days. sheesh! and so, he told stories of his cousins being 4-D/Toto dealers. ooo~ interesting. so i might just see one of my relatives sitting behind that big booth getting people to win big? haha.. i don't know.

and fasting tomorrow. well not tomorrow but more of later after broad daylight. yupp! like i said, im tired of eating and chewing due to my teeth and such so yeah, might as well fast at the same time yeah? positive! tried gathering a few people to fast with me but only one person went with the plan. sadly. but its ok, we will still have to fast together during the fasting month aye? haha.

and so, riswan visited my school today. yeah, its the riswan from airport guide lah. haha. had some comments about him from the cliques but i wont share it here though. he wanted to buy school uniform. but ended up talking rubbish with me that we didn't notice the co-op shop actually closed already. haha. sadly. then later, off he went to work. eh meany monster, lets go visit him later after break fast? haha.

somehow, my phone is a bigger bitch then it was before. now the memory stick causes problems. i think i will burn my phone if it does anything stupid again. and i will use the lighter hanie gave to burn it. haha. cause its a phone figure. yeah. very cute nia~ so smack! better not get on my nerves, phone!

i've got a bad feeling about twin. i'm just missing her too much. uncle james has yet to update me about her and i'm seriously getting worried. well who wouldn't if they found out someone they cared about is laying in some hospital unconscious and you cant visit them cause they're in some other far away country and you are not financially positive to go there by yourself? praying hard. she must get well.

anyways, hi ansari. dah dapat tag kan?! haha. suker arh tu. anyway, about the gaji thing right, i think they purposely gave us such tiny amount. other than the CNY part lah. ya. go claim again arh. haha..

i smile each time i look into your eyes.


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