Sundays are a bore once you have nothing to do. staring at that pack of cigarettes brings such a tempting sensation. (oh no) having a puff or two really hurts when i know its something you detest alot from me. im sorry i lied. but seriously now, im trying my best to stop. ive gotten over it. i prayed hard everyday so that i could stop. i just hope you could understand. i will throw those things away this instant even if you didnt tell me to. i know im being naive. sorry..

i read, i prayed, i think of other things to do. and alhamdulilah, things are getting better. other than the temptations from the surrounding humans, im getting the hang of it. i wished you could be by my side to hold on to when im falling off the cliff. but no, i cant depend too much on you. letting go of this selfish side of myself. i have to. ok.

how i wish i could. i really wished i could. my head spins every time i think of it. but i just dont have that enough courage like you have to tell people off. im small. im too small. im really just too small to face anything. im afraid. im always afraid.

and good evening Cortez. how have you been? i missed you too. sorry i didnt pick up any of your calls anymore. i just dont wanna get hurt whenever im listening to your voice. and sorry if i didnt reply your smses as i think i dont have to since im nothing to you now. and yes, i dreamt about you last night just after reading your sms. sweet dreams only without disasters holding anything in. i think i better stop this for tears started rolling down my cheeks already. let me move on please. thank you for being a part of my life once or twice or thrice.

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Su - haha. yeah.. thx.. dah lamer tak jumpe? cepat lah jumper..! haha..
Jen - whatever Aunt Jennifer! October 11 ok?
PJ - relinked! haha. italy.. hmm.. what u think?


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