Monday, June 30, 2008

0 comments @ 01:27

ive managed to forget you. but somehow, you never give up and tried to make a come back. i don't know why but i don't think i can take this anymore. every time when i forget you, you will do something to make sure that i cant. i don't know if its just me or you are to be blamed. why cant you just let me move on with life and live happily with the one i love? you made me go crazy for being just who i am. i read to myself stories about you just because i see your name blinking on my phone each time you call. is it so hard just to let me go and lead a normal life like everyone else? i don't understand you. though i may have understood you before, ive grown not wanting to understand you anymore. the first time i met you, thinking that i will lead a happy life with you in years to come, im sure ive mistaken. after the two years of stupidity and stubbornness, i think i deserve this now. trusting you too much, relying for you to not hurt my feeling anymore even when i know that you will repeat whatever you've done again and again. and to think that the job offer to work in your dad's company will make me go running back to your feet? hell no! what should i do so that you can just forget me and leave me alone? because of you, im ashamed of being an italian for the past 3 years. oh yes.. not forgetting.. happy "3rd" year anniversary. that was what im gonna wish you if we were still together. but i think im taking it back. oh what a fool i am.

i am sorry if i killed myself. i had no choice but to do it..