i really just wish that he could just leave me alone. go back to Italy and lead our separate lives. i cant stand the way his been trying to act like he is even concern of what im facing everyday in my life. well, get it straight alright? i have no more feelings for you so seriously please just back out of my life. im writing in this blog hoping that you would read it and damn, i really had enough.

i miss my fellow airport guide buddies. should i go to work? or should i just go there for a visit like i always do? i dont intend to hug anyone though. as i dont feel like hugging anyone just yet even when im really in need of one right this very moment. alright fine, anyone is welcome to hug me even if your not my hugging partner.

now that school is officially starting, i couldnt care less of my surroundings. i just wish to end this ITE life and get a move on as quickly as possible. not that i dont enjoy studying with my fellow classmates, but its more of the self-esteem that is pulling me way down. to some of the tradition in the family, mine is suppose to be better in the academics. not looking down on my relatives or anything but i just feel that i could have done better and gone way up higher. man, i feel like im demoralizing myself even further. sheesh...

and hey kid, heard that your granddad passed away last night. sorry to hear about it. condolences from my side. sorry if i didnt come to visit.

oh yes, one more thing, im not going to Jakarta at the end of this month. yeah.. sorry Nez. maybe some other time or perhaps during my term break alright? was looking forward to going though as i miss that partner-in-crime of mine. well, the next time i visit we will go as what we planned alright missy?




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