Dear C, i had enough of your stupidity. i had enough of your lies and i certainly had enough of you, fucking bastard. you wanna come? sure. entertain yourself while your here. i wont bother a single thing about you. cant you just leave me alone and let me go to find my own peace?! listening to your voice wont make me go back to you anymore. damn it!


and hello to my sleeping self. tomorrow's school. get out of your beauty sleep and time to get studying. you got yourself in this mess and now you have to get out of it. study hard so that you can catch up with your other buddies in secondary school. prove that you can do well and get into university.

ah yes, i wasnt even listed in the deployment for 2nd shift. pissed off to the max. was on the verge of slapping any supervisor that was at sight. luckily had W to hug to cool myself down. hugged him tight to prevent tears from rolling and my anger from blowing. fortunately i didnt cry or i would have soaked his jacket. sorry if i caused any unintended gossips or soon-to-be rumors for just now's hugging scene. haha.. so officially his my hugging partner. LOL!


Dear mummy, i miss being myself. i feel that im hiding behind a mask that everyone sees everyday. i feel that im lying to myself and to everyone else. i feel that im just not meant to be me. i miss the person called shafiqah amirah...
after so long, vulgarities revived in my vocabulary.