my fingers no longer wish to do the talking now. its all up to my brain to send the signal, forcing my little fingers to type out whatever i felt about after the many days ive disappeared.

life aint at all that great. i now understand how it feels to be working. truly. though with much experiences with other jobs, this current one is hitting the high c well enough to make me think like a real human. havent got the chance to really sleep well, since ive been doing 12hr shifts while others do only 6hrs. i miss my slacking life. i miss my little hamsters whom ive neglected for so long. i miss my room. i miss my dreams. i miss my imposter. i miss everything that was before i started working.

he may hate me with his whole heart and soul. he may prank call me every night. he may do anything he want as long as he doesnt ruin my life as a human being, a girl, a muslim, a daughter and a singaporean. Cortez, im hating you even more. i didnt expect my bestest most bestest buddy to be doing this to me. yes i know we broke up way long time ago so lets just move on aite? i wish for you to remain as my best friend and not a foe. i will not take any of your hatred towards me at heart just yet. but i will still hate you.

chinese new year was all boring this year. people should be enjoying new years day instead of working their ass off to earn extra pennies for the lifetime support group. sorry but i dont mean to be rude or what but its just facts.

i think i shall continue my entry on another plain, empty, slacking day where i can type in peace and harmony.

im bleeding more than i should. and its all because of you....


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