i came back, walking all slow and unsteadily. i feel drunkard yet sleepy at the same time. oh how i would like to know what alcohol could do to me. unfortunately no. somehow that is how an alcoholic might be feeling, the same as what i felt this minute. how i wish... being able to forget your problems for a moment though it will come back. well, im underage. and im a muslim. so what can i not do now? haix..

when out with zeek and asyraf just now. headed over to geylang where stupidity actually overwhelms our puny brains. no offence if you two are reading this. since i was the only girl among us, leader chooses the path. basically its not my role. got unwell after just the smoke from grilling. no wonder smoking wasnt my forte. was coughing throughout, till blood i spat. though little, i was antagonized by it. well, who wouldnt? and still, i kept it to only myself even till now. dont tell a single soul!

saw cik enal, cik bariah and cik mira while was walking around the was then fresh yet now polluted roads of geylang. scary but true. zie, your dad should know those two since he saw them, if you must know. and little panah had to get his battery all dead just when i needed him the most. how idiotic of that phone of mine.

walked about hougang mall, sighting all the shops preparing for closure. how i wish i could just lay out my overcoat and lay down in the middle of the mall, without being the center of attraction. well, my intentions were almost fulfiled until the security shooed me off. CB LAH! so instead, got myself some roasted chestnuts, eclairs and bubbletea. that is when i notice that something different is with my bubbletea. i too sense alcohol in it but only to a small percentage. so there, see... i drank alcohol already. kill me if you must. but also, there was a tinge of grape in there. so be prepare Iqah, you'll be polkadots soon enough. then headed back to compass point and walked around, again, sighting all the shops in preparation to closure. haix..

thought of riding to plaza singapura to catch a late night movie before heading back to the place i once call home. but i must enunciate farewell to movies and hello books. and since my phone is out of batterylife, so i took the initiative to be a partially good girl and go back to the place i once call home.

what does home really mean to you? the feeling of being loved and no shouting and screaming of no sh*t every now and then. the sign of happiness and joyous happenings. thats what i would call home. so now, i will find somewhere else to stay until i find my piece of mind. hey, it's my life..

and sorry asyraf, will pay you back in cash. i dont wanna be in debt with you. will make me feel awkward to even talk to you later. and zeek, luckily you were sprouting nonsense. at least it took my mind off my current problems. thanks you two *idiots*! haha.. just kidding aite! i think i should be getting off before i get more drunk. already am honey..!

Love me, Leave me. Leave me, Kill me. Kill me, Stay with me. Stay with me, Love me.

Zie, i will be here for you if you need anyone ok. i do care for you. i love you too, honey..

Jon, i will miss you forever. you were a great friend. rest in peace.



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:) - Hello haryani! how u noe its me? haha.. long time no chat.

-FiQaHyRa-


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