everyday is getting worst. do the same things and it hurts. i dont know if i should cry, all i know is that i am trying. i wanna believe in you but you make it so hard to. whats the point of making plans, you break all the one we had. i dont know where we went wrong, cause we use to be so strong. so why cant u be good to me? i dont ask for much, all i want is love. someone to see, thats all i need. somebody to be good to me. please..

the lightning that strikes right in front of my face. the sky has been frowning for more than an hour now. it seems that it understands the meaning of loneliness. as of today, i have been one of the most loneliest person to be walking on this earth. usually, i will be out my house every saturday morning, heading over for tuition class and will bump into at least one of my friends along the way. then, after tuition class, i went to hougang to forage some flowers to get for mummy dearest as a token for her hardwork and patience and also not forgetting to soften her heart after a loud yet never ending dispute.

hey i still am sick. if only anyone could get me something so that i could get better (other than medications). azzah was blowing her nose real hard today. makes me realise that im not at all very ill. im still interminably bleeding and to my calculations, i have loss a total of 48% of my blood daily. good thing my blood will still replenish itself so that i have sufficient blood to circulate. of what i know, i use to bleed alot whenever im in a state of nervousness, stress or depressed and could total up to a whole 500ml wasted. not that i slit my wrist or anything, its just that i will have some open wound somewhere and it will continue on and on. i think im dying. i am right? feels like it.

i have at least 3 more days before heading a year closer to death. dont be shocked. im just stating facts in this blog of mine. the lightning strikes 3 times today, as i sit by the window infront of my laptop facing directly towards the electrical atmosphere. oh what coincidence!

hey zie, so how is the planning for our outing? has it been settled? only 14 and above allowed. haha. i wanna watch spiderman 3 and fantastic 4. haha. in numerical order please. and ok i will drink as much water so that my house wont be bloody. can someone tell anuar what migration i processing in? he sounds very gundu in the tagboard at my old blog. haha.

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